Wrecked

Let's not look at this as a gulf that both of us have to cross to get together. let's look at this as a gap that can only be crossed by the bridge of God's love. I'm sorry that I didn't foresee this. I feel that I a thoroughly to blame. I should have created an evironmetn around me that was more open to not just honesty, but also transparency. I thought we were doing so well. That's why this is hitting me like someone dropped a whale on me. I'm crushed, but I do not lbame you for this. I could never blaem you for anything. We need to redirect all our attention to the cituation. Yes, I take full responsibility for this happening, but I can't make it right on my own. I need the Lord's help to overcome my failures. I think I became too complacent. I have ahabit of doing this. I tried to keep things new and exciting, but I forget to neglect what really made our relationship special. Intentional, thoughful, and cooperative discussion. Remmeber outside Dan and Daniels's that one night? We need to get back to being those poeple again. I can appreciate what you are going through. You have to understand my cituation is something I have to ovecome as well in order to date. I feel so inadequete because of what the Lord has chosen for me. I was never sure if I would be able to find someone to fit the bill of what I needed. I say needed as in the original wya man needed woman. I felt like Adam, you see. I felt like that first man who seem fine as God created Him. I came to terms with who I was and what my calling was. But when I looked at my situation I discovered that I needed help needed to be met in ways I couldn't accomplish on my own. It truly wouldn't be good if i was a man alone. So after I became settled in my singleness I began to look for God's answer to my needs. I didn't know what the answer would be, but I knew I would be attentive when she cossed my path. I refused to be caught sleeping on the job of finding you! I've looking through some of my old journaled prayers. I never once asked God for someone repcisely like you. For not even my vast imagination could concieve someone so splendid. All I did when praying for was ask God to provide someone who would meet m two greatest needs, my child, and my poor comunication. Oh, blessed father, You fullfilled desries that I didn't know i had 'till they snuck up upon me so suddenly that I was caught compeltely off guard when my sentences beheld them. I am wrecked by your providence. I am forever grateful. Evelasting thanksgiving was do you fully from salvation alone. I had no way of ever rendering a proper responce soley from that. Now that you have given me her I have less then no way.